(This post is a response from my Faith-Rooted Organizing course at Fuller Theological Seminary.)
My elevator response to the question posed in the title of this entry would be: “a hesitant yes,” as I’ve found it is
critical to have these kinds of responses of late. Sitting down over a meal, though, I would
start by considering Robert Linthicum’s distillation of Jesus’ sermon on the
mount in Transforming Power, provided
that our definition of Christian
means follower of Christ. If we claim Jesus as our model for living,
then we Christians should also tirelessly work to set captives free, recover
the sight of the blind (in both a sense of physical healing and the
metaphorical sense of blissful ignorance vs. authenticity), set at liberty
those who are oppressed, and proclaim the good news to the poor by reframing
systems towards Jubilee economics. Community organizing practices, as Alexia Salvatierra notes in class,
are historically proven to achieve systemic change, and if we are to disrupt modern
slaveries and get to the economic roots of poverty, we will not do that by
praying alone.
If, however, by Christian, we are referring to a dominant culture group of the United States, a label insidiously touting religious superiority, and one of the shorthand terms often used in the media to reference conservative legalists, then my answer becomes far more complicated. The way the word "Christian" itself has fluidity, as well as how we see ourselves in that range of definitions, truly matters. Are we organizing to win political points on hot-button issues and just “get our candidate” into office by any means necessary? Or, are we actually invested in the welfare of the whole, the work to find all of the lost sheep, to recognize that we, too, are lost sheep without our entire flock together? Can we rise to the challenge of living into the 3,000 verses by Salvatierra and Peter Heltzel’s count in Faith-Rooted Organizing, or 10% of the entire text of the Bible, calling us towards a Shalom sense of justice for all? For almost 20 years, I have struggled with the potential difference between being a Christian (too often a form of taking the Blue Pill, à la The Matrix) and following Jesus (the Red Pill) while I wrestled to understand the purpose of my own white-centered privileges. Thus, before one steps into faith-rooted community organizing, especially one who hails from a place of economic and social power, it is necessary for deep awareness building and listening before jumping into the audacious role of working for systemic change. To shed light on my personal walk, I will employ Adam Taylor’s framework in Mobilizing Hope for public narrative and testimony by touching upon a story of self, how that connected to a story of us, and a story of now. We must understand our authentic selves, which I believe is best achieved in vulnerable community, what Salvatierra might call familia justicia, and then we must work with others to see how that is linked in a greater modern story.
I grew up Catholic in suburban
Detroit. With some important exceptions,
most church-goers in my community seemed comfortable with a country club model. I avoided being misused by
any priests, but I did have a babysitter who inappropriately explored his sexuality on me. With an angry alcoholic
grandfather, a veteran of the front lines of both campaigns of WWII (who did make wonderful changes during his final years, noted in my last post), and a father who seemed too quiet for my liking, I grew up more or less detesting men. I also was teased by an African American
classmate who saw my vulnerable sensitivities as a clear indicator that I was a
“faggot,” and he found no lack of opportunities to publicly declare that
after cornering me in fight after fight.
Fast forward to college, where I figured, well, since many people think
I’m gay anyway, might as well test out the theory. Maybe I hated men because, deep down, I
actually was in love with them. What
followed was not all bad, and in many ways unearthed some really important
sides to my personality. Though it also
became a sort of sex addiction, which brought its own baggage of degradation
and despair. God was an afterthought at
best, and when I thought on God actively, I was mostly angry and certainly
couldn’t stand the Christians on campus that kept telling me I was going to
hell.
Adam Taylor recounts a forced
mountaintop moment where he screamed out to God in anger, and as I read this in
on the bus today, I laughed out loud with full recognition. A decade after my college days, the dread of
my desperate need to find love through sex, which I had come to see as a need
to love myself, as a man, had found
too many dead ends. Before I knew it was a religious cliché, or at least a motif, I climbed up to
the top of Runyon Canyon to ask God where the
hell had he been all this time?
Immediately upon uttering the words, I fell on my knees, and forevermore
understand being slain in the Spirit.
A vision shone like a slow
lightning bolt, a thread of memories divinely organized to make sense of a
swirl of emotional narratives. This
would be the start of moving my story towards a story of us. First, I saw my bully, but it was
that odd moment in 9th grade where he approached me, one-on-one, to
apologize. At the time, I was afraid he
was luring me close to trick me, but he was absolutely sincere. In fact, he told me that he was having a hard
year at home and he was looking for people to
blame. A moment of repentance and
reconciliation from my bully, as he never threatened or bothered me again.
Then I saw Levi and heard his huge
belly laugh, the lifer in a maximum security prison in Michigan who I now see
is like my Paul, and I am his Onesimus.
In college at the University of Michigan, my friendships started to gel
around activism. I grew up very
disturbed by the reality of the dividing line of Detroit and my
hometown 5 miles away. Some, but not all, of our neighbors were exceedingly racist, and often talked about what “black people do when
you give them nice homes like the ones in downtown Detroit,” (the implication
was that they burn them down or board them up.)
So, along with declaring my gay status, I started volunteering with the
Prison Creative Arts Project. I came to
fall in love with this work, and if I’m honest, it first came from a sense of
defiance and becoming a sort of white savior.
When I explained to friends, Christian friends, about regularly
visiting prison and doing improvisational theater work, they all looked at me
incredulously and said that, “Jesus didn’t mean you actually had to visit
prisoners, that was more of a metaphor.” A metaphor for what, I always wondered?
It was Levi who hugged me every
visit; Levi who always asked how he could pray for me; Levi who loved me
unconditionally and took it upon himself to be my vocational advisor. Levi entrusted me with his story, a new layer
every visit, and told me to become a teacher.
He also asked me to share the good news of who he actually was, the
Vietnam vet who came back with PTSD, had trouble holding a job, resorted to
selling drugs, ended up a lifer because of a manslaughter that occurred on a
season of parole when he was protecting his niece. Levi who said that
Jesus died for him as well as me, and that the world will be the ones who
suffer more in the end if they can only see him as “murderer.” Levi, the man I missed most when the Michigan
Department of Corrections shut us down and ensured I could never communicate
with him again.
From there, I tasted the gumbo and Pho, the meals I had with families in New Orleans upper Ninth Ward. Because of Levi’s guidance, I joined Teach For America. While I didn’t fall in love
with the rigors of academic administration as a sixth grade teacher, I did fall
in love with hearing the stories of families in New Orleans East. I thought I was coming to help them, and in
many ways, I did. The joy of Facebook is
that many of my former students, now 26 years old, keep in touch and cite my
love of teaching poetry as pivotal in their lives. But I intimately learned the reality of the
school to prison pipeline. I became a
natural advocate for parents who were too often blamed for “not caring” because
I had personally heard story after story of parents, many of them single,
needing to hold both a job at Wal-Mart alongside multiple weekend cleaning gigs
to make ends meet. Attending a
parent-teacher conference very likely meant that they could lose a job. I started calling
parents on a regular basis to hear their concerns, their hopes and fears for
their children, and from that, was often invited to dinner. Many parents made me a special pot of
“vegetarian” gumbo (I had become vegetarian to impress a girl in college, and I
carried that with me to New Orleans), because their children remembered that detail from my classroom introduction. Of
course, in the deep South in 1999, vegetarian meant it only lacked red meat or
sausage; chicken and shrimp were still plentiful. This is not the hospitality of a people who “do
not care”, and God reminded me that I made a choice to eat what was before me,
not to raise an objection to the technicalities of vegetarianism, and how that
moved us to deeper relationship. How
they prayed for me, often, by the light of a television on mute, and how I had
never fully understood community before those meals.
So I came down from my mountain
humbled, open, and ready to learn more, much like Taylor describes. Who were the most profound incarnations of
God in my life? Folks from the margins,
clearly, in both an economic and a social sense. A black bully who taught me about repentance
and reconciliation. A lifer who taught
me the truth of the Gospel. A chorus of
African-American and Vietnamese families in New Orleans East, the area that
would become most decimated by Hurricane Katrina, who took southern hospitality
and launched it into a glimpse of the Beloved Community. And yet, even with all these moments that God
reminded me precisely “where the hell he had been,” I still had years ahead of
me of coming to terms with the privileges of my particular whiteness.
That began, of course, by realizing
that I had been trying to do it all alone, that I was proudly going to figure
it all out without anyone else. Because
God also sent someone to help me process all of those visions, a Christian man
who, for all intents and purposes, might be called gay by some (in the most basic, shorthanded
modern definition). Also
African-American, I believed myself to be in love with him, though he framed
our relationship around addressing my privilege and my codependencies. He wanted me to pay attention to my pride. He wanted me to be honest and own my frenetic
self-righteousness and self-centered determination. He told me that, from his point of view, he
saw a white kid trying to save the world but deeply unable to love his own
self. He called my sexual explorations
with men a form of narcissism, that at heart, I was trying to find myself as
lovable and attractive. That
conversation, another moment of being slain in the Spirit, quite literally
saved my life.
I learned of ex-boyfriends who fell
into lifestyles completely revolving around crystal meth. I learned of ex-boyfriends, whom I may have
sought to reconnect with, contracting diseases that may never leave. And, I was encouraged to explore my
attractions to women again, which led to my beautiful and complicated marriage
to Darcie, and the chance to start the lives of two amazingly sensitive
justice-seeking daughters.
So when I finally read the Bible,
cover to cover, in four unique translations, I realized the sheer breadth of
what all the books and notes are concurring: God deeply cares about the link
between justice, love, compassion, mercy, and redemption. Each of these
concepts requires a separate, but related, call to action. God cared about all
of this in the Old Testament, and Jesus creatively adjusts it all to fit the
contexts of the New Testament. And God cares about that as much now as in ancient days. So what do the marginalized folks in
downtown Detroit have in common with my gay brothers, especially those who
engage in a slow obliteration-through-massive-medication? How is the school to prison pipeline
functioning now, as my connections to former students through Facebook gives me
access to joyful moments along with news that many classmates are in prison
just like Levi. How am I to use my
privilege to reveal the misuse of the Gospel and the vital value of the
perspectives of the many folks God has put in my path?
Linthicum’s celebration of the "end of the story" reminded me of a moment during my eight years with DOOR where we
heard from the Rev. Dr. Shanta Premawardhana of the Seminary Consortium for Urban Pastoral Education (SCUPE). He
preached that Revelation 21 comes to a moment in the glorious new city, the
penultimate beloved community, where all the nations gather together and
celebrate, not losing any of their unique
splendors, the victory of God achieving true justice, true reconciliation,
the fullness of Shalom. If that’s the case, then our diversity must be valuable
and purpose-filled to God. And if that’s
the case, then what Salvatierra and Heltzel point out, that the dominant, often
wealthiest sectors of our modern society will view sacred texts through a very
limited lens, so that we might truly need the perspectives of those who
don’t benefit from privilege to really understand who God intends us to be.
In my life, those perspectives have
directly saved my life while slowly reshaping my limited mindsets. I believe, wholeheartedly, that actively
working to practice justice will heal us all, as Taylor concludes. Community organizing, especially faith-rooted
organizing, has the potential to open us up to these critical perspectives,
open our eyes and ears to grasp the reality of the times we have been
given. This starts though, especially
for those of us who could easily slip back into the privileged bliss of “taking
the blue pill,” in the humbling process of listening to people as they are, not
as we predefine them. It also demands
that we learn from them, that we trust that they might have the best ideas to
achieve their own liberation, and that those ideas might actually have
implications in our personal liberation from oppressive systems. It requires that we see Jesus as much more
than our personal Savior, but that our salvation’s purpose is to be active
agents in marching toward the ultimate vision of God’s Creation. Yes, Christians must engage in actively
seeking justice. Yes, some may be
front-line protestors, and some may be writers working hard on challenging
oppressive mindsets. Yes, some people
may need years of coming to terms with the inherent comforts of their
privilege, and, yes, that might mean having to own their ineffectiveness until
they do so. Yes, it is not work rooted
in personal prosperity gospels, but it is the patient and painstakingly long
haul work intended for the prosperity of all.
Yes, Christians should engage in faith-rooted community organizing. By coming alongside a diverse community of Christians doing the very same thing. Together, we march forward towards the Beloved Community. - +Matthew John Schmitt @matthewjschmitt
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